I've decided to put a dedicated post here on my blog for me to keep track of my progress for my 30 and Beyond series. As of today, July 29, 2018 (2:18pm) Manila time, I am here in my flat and have been adopting my aunt for a week already. I am more comfortable writing my thoughts so I can go back to the previous entries I've made and well... see how far I've come.
Here's a little backstory on my life:
I started training to be a performing artist since I was in 5th grade. My mom enrolled me to voice lessons, and other musical theater workshops since then. I would always be scared every time I meet new people, have a new environment where I will be mingling and working alongside kids, teens, and adults who were all talented. I felt insecure at first but eventually, I would fall head over heels with the experience and the exposure that I get.
I took up Conservatory of Music major in Voice Performance when I went to college. My mom and I had a game plan that if I get the chance to be in Broadway or if I eventually drop out of school because of the musical theater or other performance gigs that it will be okay because I can always learn the ropes in the family business. It was basically, drop and hold everything to pursue a dream. Our dream.
Then in my second year in college, my mom passed away and that's when my life changed in terms of my career. On my third year in the Conservatory, I transferred majors from Voice Performance to Music Education because my family now thinks that they will be waiting for too long if I pursue my first choice. Sometimes it will take 8 to 10 years to graduate because there would be a lot of factors for the voice to mature. Music Education on the other hand only takes 5 years. That's when my love for music and the performing arts started to fade away.
I took up another course and shifted from music to fashion. I enrolled at The One School at that time they had a partnership with SoFA Design Institute. I took up an Entrepreneurship major in Fashion Design and Marketing course. I took it up mainly because it's majoring in business. I took it so that I could help out in the family business after a few years.
*** I've been trying to check my old files for any performances I had but apparently, I deleted that part of my life together with my photos and memories.
Anyway, what's the point of this blog or passion project? Ever since I graduated from school, I helped out in the family business and had other jobs too but mainly my life focused and revolved around my family. It's been a chaotic world for me and I've been here for seven years already. My first year, I had this feeling of being unsure and having no sense of fulfillment. Fast-forward to this day nothing ever changed. It has gotten worse to the point of me getting and battling depression of this situation I am in. Don't get me wrong though, I am forever grateful for my family and the life I have now but I would rather give it all up by having a simple life. A life and a job that I would have a sense of contentment and fulfillment.
I don't want to delve into a lot of things but this video's message pretty much sums up what I feel right now:
I used to think that I'm soooooo old to start again but I will try to prove to a lot of people and myself that 30 is just a number! I will do great things starting today and with that said, yes, I am shifting and moving to a new career where I'll feel more content and fulfilled.
I'm of course scared on what the future brings, but I wouldn't know if I wouldn't try right? Follow me on this journey and let's see what happens next! :)
- End July 29, 2018 2:59pm -
Edited on Aug 13, 2018